Dear Diary, My Body Has Been Bodying… 🙄❣️
Heyyyyy my diary friends! ❣️
So, we’ve been keeping things pretty general around here lately, but I think it’s time we check in on the sickle cell side of life for a minute because babyyyyyy… my body has been BODYING, and quite frankly, I would like to unsubscribe. 😂
I don’t know if it’s the time change, the weather, stress, or a little combination of everything, but my body has been all over the place lately. And if you live with sickle cell, you know sometimes the hardest part isn’t even the pain itself. It’s the mental gymnastics that come with figuring out what to do about it.
Like, let me ask y’all something…
Are y’all the type to take your pain meds as soon as you feel something coming on, or do you give yourself a little time to see if it’ll pass?
Because truth be told, I do both. It really just depends on how I’m feeling.But also I have a working pain level that i can function with day to day, so that plays a part too.
Sometimes I give myself a little waiting period. During that time, I’m mentally checking boxes. How bad is it? Is it getting worse? What have I been doing physically? What do I still have to do today? Can I manage this, or is my body telling me to sit myself down somewhere?
And listen… that little assessment process is exhausting in itself. Ughhhhh.
It’s like constantly having to negotiate with your own body. And while I’ve gotten pretty good at listening to mine, that doesn’t mean I always enjoy the conversation. 🙄
But enough about my body acting like it pays bills around here becauseeeee…
THE SAGITTARIUS IN ME IS BEGINNING TO SAGITATE! ♐️😂
Y’all know what time it isssss!
My birthday is approaching, and I am so ready! Not because I have some extravagant plans or a packed itinerary. Nope. Quite the opposite, actually.
I want to do NOTHING.
And I mean absolutely nothing.
There’s something about the nothingness of it all that I’ve grown to appreciate so much. No obligations, no rushing, no having to be anywhere at a certain time. Just me, my peace, and whatever I feel like doing in that very moment.
And honestly? That sounds like a beautiful way to celebrate another trip around the sun.
Oh, and before y’all even ask, YES, my days off work have already been secured. Because one thing about me…
I WAS NOT AN EMPLOYEE WHEN I WAS BORN! 😂😂
Ya feel me?!
That day belongs to ME, and I intend to act accordingly.
But seriously, between my body being unpredictable and life doing what life does, I’m learning to appreciate the slower moments even more. Sometimes celebrating yourself doesn’t have to look like doing the most. Sometimes it’s simply giving yourself permission to do the least.
And right now, that sounds pretty fulfilling to me.
A Little Something to Sit With ❣️
How often do we give ourselves permission to rest without feeling like we have to earn it first?
Sometimes the greatest gift we can give ourselves isn’t another experience, another accomplishment, or another thing checked off the list.
Sometimes it’s simply the freedom to exist without expectations.
And if you ask me, that’s a celebration all by itself. ❣️
P.S. To my fellow sickle cell warriors, I’m genuinely curious. How do y’all navigate those moments when you’re deciding whether to take your pain medication or wait it out? Let’s talk in the comments because I know I’m not the only one having these internal debates!
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